After the Storm ends

After the Storm ends

It’s been a crazy few weeks. Ups and downs. A lot of heartache, anxiety, excitement, and complacent moments. I’ve been feeling very invisible and reclused to say the least.

One of the main reasons for the lack of blogging is we are moving! We sold our home and found a new home closer to the main city. That’s where we came from originally and we are quite excited to be moving back. Our new location is great because we so close to all the shopping centres, groceries, stores, food where we can just walk! I’m excited to take my son out and have our daily walks to the mall do some shopping without having to load him up into the car and drive a distance just to get some fun in. My husband is also very very close to his work (7-10 mins to be specific) in comparison to his 45 min drive he is doing now. Defintely a gas and time saver. With the record-breaking price of gas prices that has come to Vancouver these days, you have no idea how much of a relief this whole short distance driving is.

We get to be closer to our families and our friends. LOL no one has to be secretly (or some have outwardly express their complaints) about how far they have to drive to come and visit us anymore. We are going to be in the centre of everything now and it’s going to be so nice to be back home. Sure it’s busier but nothing beats being back home.

We are downsizing though but you know what? We are okay with it. Thinking about which areas of the current home we spend most time in … it’s exactly the same as if we were in our new place. The benefits of this new place is that this condo is brand new, so no one has ever lived here before. Brand new appliances, and there is air conditioning in every room!!! We don’t have to be confined to just our bedroom anymore when the summer heat comes along. And there’s no more stairs!! No more worrying about my son falling down stairs. No more having to run up and and down the stairs when checking up on my son during his naps.

AMIDST ALL THIS HOWEVER, a tragedy has fallen on our family. My father-in-law passed away late last month and it was just a devastating blow. I don’t want to go into many details about this as it’s hard to talk about but I will say that we miss him and love him very much. Actually my husband thinks that this whole opportunity in selling our house and moving closer to the city was a part of his dad’s divine plan as he always wished we lived closer to him and his mom. He always wished that if he were to go, that his son would help watch over his mom too. So I don’t know. Maybe it was through his spirit and love that he helped us sell our house and be in another beautiful home with better opportunities and a fresh start. We just wished that he was there when we moved so that we are close to him. But I guess he’s always close by. He’s watching over us. I’m sure he’s happy that we are moving back regardless.

So … like I said. Ups and downs. We are moving a few weeks so I’m still busy packing everything. I pack and my husband brings them over to the condo. I’m not fond of the packing process as it’s hard sometimes to part with certain things. One advice I have though for people who are moving and packing: SERIOUSLY THROW AWAY CRAP YOU DO NOT NEED!! I learned this lesson when we moved to this current place. We had sooooooooo much shit and it was just a nightmare trying to pack all of it. We ended up throwing up a lot of stuff and donating even more. We had some opportunities to sell some good items as well. I am thankful for ALL of this because now that we are moving again, I learned to not accumulate any more crap and now it’s such AN EASIER time to pack. We have wayyyyyy less boxes and the fact we are downsizing is not too much of a problem. We did have to sell some furniture though but it’s okay because the proceeds is helping with the costs of moving like the professional cleaning, movers and to buyer newer furniture to fit the new look of our new place. I guess you learn things the more times you move HAHA.

But this is a new start for us. We have had a rough year last year and with the passing, we just need a new light. We want a new beginning for us as a family. I hope that this the start of something great since usually when there is a rough storm, there is always a rainbow and a calm breeze waiting at the end of it. This is will be our rainbow.

Here is to 2018.

Hobbies or more?

Hobbies or more?

In light of my best friend having a baby girl in a few months time, I had all the more reason to start crocheting again.  I honestly can’t even remember the last time I crocheted anything but once I heard “baby”, it was like a candid click of a camera and instantly started looking for patterns to make cute little booties, mitten and a hat!

It was like riding a bike, with falls along the way.  I had to keep referring to YouTube videos because I kept second guessing myself on how to do simplest little things.  Eventually, maybe after re-making 4 right booties, I got it right (well … not right … more like felt satisfied HAH).  I’ve finished the hat and now it’s the pain of making the mittens.  They’re so tiny and adorable but wow a pain in my ass right now.  It’s all worth it though of course.  I love my best friend to pieces and this is for her little girl so it’s worth it!

I’ve always like creating things but my problem is that I never really followed through in mastering anything.

I’m like a “Jane of All Trades, Master of None”. 

I could be this crazy Crochet lady where I could make sweaters, baby sets, scarves, hats … and potentially be good enough to sell them on Etsy or something but I just don’t have the patience or the motivation.  I have always wanted my own business of some sort but never know what it could be due to my many hobbies and it’s hard for me to pick one. My sister-in-law actually made a good point (because she’s even better than I am at crocheting and arts and crafts), that when she makes something, it’s for love and for someone in particular.  She doesn’t find the idea of making masses amounts just to sell them a justification of her craft.  She wants to have meaning when she makes something and not to just do it because she wants to sell it.  See … I get that.  I don’t know if that’s a hidden subconscious reasoning behind why I don’t do it but it’s a great point that I never thought about before.

It’s not just crocheting though.  Even with my photography, my graphic skills (I used to make invitations and cards for friends and family like weddings and birthdays), my drawings, cooking and baking … I have so much potential in all these areas but I have just merely kept them as “hobbies” and never moved forward with them.

Time is a factor too I guess.  If you were to pursue something seriously, you would need to really dedicate your time.  Every minute of it.

I don’t have that.

Now thinking about it, I think that’s the major factor in my lack of ambition.  I think this is my epiphany. My time lies with my family, especially my son.  It’s hard for me to sacrifice time towards something else, probably because he’s still so young and I don’t want to miss any important things at this stage in his life where he’s learning how to talk and learning how to be aware and absorb his environment.  It’s one of those things where you have to put your ambitions aside until you know there’s time to spare to dedicate yourself to your craft.

So I think for now, I am obviously not going to stop my hobbies but nor am I pursuing any major ambitions.  I am going to take this time to hone in on my skills and hopefully somewhat perfect them. That way, by the time I can get some time to follow through with my ambitions, I can do it with confidence.