Routine Boredom

Routine Boredom

I currently have a lot of time on my hands and sometimes I don’t even know how to deal with it. I go through cabin fever sometimes and I have to keep myself busy but there’s really only so much I can do sometimes.

I play with my son.
I feed him.
I crochet.
I watch tv.
I play with my son some more.
I feed him again.
I put him to a nap when he gets tired.
I browse the internet for crochet inspirations or other hobby inspirations.
And it goes on and on, the same cycle every single day.

I’ve watched more tv and Netflix than I would like to admit and I am gaining quite a bit of weight since all I do otherwise is eat. And I hate it. I’m already overweight enough as it is, I don’t need to add more to it.

I have been doing a lot of crocheting and drawing inspirations for patterns and projects I can do since I want to eventually start my own etsy shop sometime. I started my own instagram account so far, WickedfulKnots at least.  That’s a start LOL.  I have been trying to do do a lot of research and I am ready to start crocheting away on different hats and scarfs.  I actually ordered some yarn from an online store that is actually based here in the lower mainland so shipping is pretty quick!  Now if only they would deliver the damn package to my door instead of the community mailbox.  Apparently, they left a notice card for me to pick it up at some post office.  Ugh.  I just wanted my yarn now LOL. I am pretty excited to start as I have a few ideas on how I want some designs to look.  I’m obviously going to start simple and I want to see how they actually turn out before I think about posting them up for sale.  I’m planning on maybe giving away a few just so I can get some feedback on them first too.  Too bad I didn’t do this around Christmas time, that would have been a perfect time to give crochet clothing LOL.  Oh well.

Anyways, that’s mostly been my days.  I mentioned that I’ve been trying to do some cleaning too.  I’m trying to clean and organize and purge.  We actually might be moving so if we do, this would be a good time to figure out what stuff we have we can keep, throw away or donate.  Purging feels great sometimes you know.  I feel lighter since there’s less clutter and less mess.  It’s weird how it affects me physically and mentally sometimes because of it.  Plus, if we do end up moving, well there’s less crap to move.  That’s a really good bonus.  Moving is hard already and having to load too much crap out and in is just a pain in the ass.  I’ve already had to go through a bunch of my son’s stuff and get rid of some old toys he doesn’t play with anymore.  I’ve put in boxes old clothes that doesn’t fit him and that he barely wore and I will give those to my sister-in-law since she has a little baby boy right now.  If I can get a head start in boxing and slowly clearing out the crap, then I’m happy because I know the feeling of having to rush packing things and it is NOT fun.


How to Deal

How to Deal

So … I did it. I got myself a domain for the blog and hosting. I had been thinking about it for quite a while and I kept battling with myself on whether to do it or not. Finally, I just decided to just go for it and see how much I keep up in a year. To be honest, if the deal price of the domain and hosting wasn’t so cheap, I probably wouldn’t have done it. So I’m pretty happy. It’s nice to have Unscripted Design stand on it’s own in some way. It’s like having a child LOL.

So many things are going right now in the background. It exhausts me mentally and physically. Let’s just say that stress is relentless. Once you sigh a breath of relief after one thing off your list, three more pop up on that list and now you can’t breathe. At least for me, it feels that way. Basically, it sucks “adulting” as my co-worker likes to say.

How do I manage? How do I get through a day despite all the mental jackhammering? I don’t really know. I just get through it somehow.

I read.
I draw.
I watch A LOT of movies (honestly … Thank goodness for Netflix)
Sometimes all it takes is one good ugly sob cry.
A cup of coffee and curling up in my favourite blanket.
Some mars bars and hershey’s cookies and cream chocolate bars.
A nice bear hug from my husband as he tries to make me laugh. He’ll make me watch him play video games sometimes just because he likes the attention from me. And because he’s always doing hilarious stuff and he likes me to witness them. HAHA.
The best thing … A nice long cuddle with my baby boy as he gives me kisses on the cheek and keeps his arm around me. That usually works too.

I guess I just try to keep myself busy. By no means does this solve anything that’s going on but it’s at least a way to numb myself down a bit temporarily. A reset. Recharge before you start another day and hope things gets better tomorrow. Because there is always tomorrow. Life is shit sometimes but as long as you have something to keep your focus and drive, that’s all that matters. I have my family to live for everyday. That’s what keeps me going.

On a side note, I should start exercising again. That would be a great way to keep myself busy and to relieve stress. Hmm … something to think about.

How do you guys relieve stress?