“Drawing is exercise for the restless imagination”
– Tim Burton
I believe I have found some inspiration to get back into my art. I have been longing to draw again but I didn’t have the motivation. Finally, I found something to bring back my spark to hold that pencil once again.
Something was telling me to login into my old art account and so I did. I looked at my old artwork and it was really making me miss drawing. I was browsing around and came by this artist, Kerby Rosanes and WOW … I just fell in love with his work. This particular piece was what really took my breath away. I noticed that it was drawn on both pages of a moleskin journal and this really inspired me to do the same! I have been out of the drawing world for so long so why not start on a small scale and draw on a small sketchbook so that I can bring it around with me and sketch whenever I feel like it?
So I found this little gem in Walmart actually and it is so cute and small that I thought it was perfect! For me, this would be a great way to ease myself back into art. I wouldn’t feel that incredible pressure of drawing something on such a large canvas. I never draw well on high pressure. I just end up getting frustrated and leave my work to the side to not be seen again for months, even years. I have so many unfinished pieces sitting in my closet and I always feel intimidated to continue them. This, however, is perfect. It’s small and like I said before, I can bring it around with me in my purse. I freaking love it.
I’ve started on a couple of little sketches already here and there. Let me tell you, it feel great to feel that pencil in my hand again. I feel like I can finally let myself in again through it. I needed a outlet of some sort and I am glad that I found something to have my emotions flow through. I hope to fill out that book and have my own little personal gallery to bring around with me.
So I hope I can finally start posting more on that instagram account again with some of my artwork. I warn you, they might not be good at first just because it has been so long since I’ve drawn anything. That’s what’s great about documenting your work though. You get to see the progress in yourself and see how you evolve and how you find your style.
Just like that, Christmas has already come and gone. All those days of frantically shopping and fighting elbows to buy gifts seem like such a blur and kind of feel like it didn’t even happen. How quickly things happen and you don’t even realize it.
Now the year is almost at an end and a new year is about to start. I don’t know what the new year is going to hold. This 2017 year in particular has been a strange and difficult one for me and now I try not to think too much about what the future holds. I know it is ultimately up to me on how to mold my future but still there’s always that anxiety and mental stress that comes along with it. It’s inevitable. I do have a couple plans here and there but we’ll see how things are when the year starts.
I do have a couple of typical goals (as I feel there should be at least some goals so that one has SOMETHING to look forward to and strive for) that I would like to try. They are only goals at that as I know that sometimes things don’t follow through as planned. That’s why I don’t call them “resolutions” anymore. I feel like there’s so much pressure in using that word and the rep it has does cause failure in actually achieving them, at least it does for me.
Start doing some yoga
This is not just for exercise and trying to be fit and all that. It goes much more deeper than that for me. I like that idea of learning to breathe and put yourself in a calmer state and be “zen”.
I think this might help my anxiety a little and help myself separate from the harshness of the outside world even if it’s just for 10 minutes (kind of like how people read books to escape). That idea coupled with being able to make my body stretch and do crazy things that I otherwise never thought I could ever do EVER would be a nice feat.
Possibly go back to school
This is pure ambition really. I was thinking of taking one of those part-time certificate programs to be a MOA (Medical office Assistant). I enjoy working in offices and doing admin work and I’ve always wanted to work in a doctor’s office. Since most certificate programs are about a year or less, I’m thinking it might work out that I can do a part-time program so I can still take care of my son and not too have pressure on study time. Might work too if I can have a part-time job as well. We’ll see.
Get back to my hobbies
I used to have a great passion in art and photography. It’s been too long since I’ve had quality time with my sketchbook and just draw our my heart’s desires. It’s also been a while since I’ve held my DLSR in my hands and take beautiful photos. A part of me has always wanted to be freelance photographer in portrait photography because I love taking pictures of people in memorable parts of their lives. I am in no way at all at a professional level but I would love to have the chance to work my way towards it. If even I can just practice and do a few sessions here and there with friends, I would absolutely LOVE IT. I actually want to practice with my son by taking him out somewhere and just take pictures of him all day and spend some time editing the photos. I used to spend HOURS and HOURS on my photoshop just doing that before and I really do miss it. I would love to build up a portfolio of some sort and hopefully have my own website and maybe have some clients in the future. Just need some practice first and get my bearings back. I feel like I can’t remember how to do all the settings anymore. I’ll see if I can get back to it in the spring when all the pretty flowers and sunshine start to show again.
Have another baby?
This is a possibility. It’s not necessarily a goal but it is something that my husband and I do want sometime in the future. We just want one more child to feel “complete” when it comes to our family. My husband also really wants a baby girl. So do I. I’ve always wanted to have a son AND a daughter. Plus, I feel like my son would really really enjoy having a sibling. He loves playing with other kids and I think it would be great for him to have someone to play with and have a close sibling bond with because he is the most sweetest and loving child ever. He would be an incredible big brother. So this could happen next year or maybe even the year after. Who knows.
So there’s my wish list for next year. I know most people do a “year in review” but I felt like doing the opposite and just state my hopes for the new year. It’s like that whole thing about not looking back on the past and just keep moving forward. “Onwards and upwards!” the CEO of my company always says. It’s a great motto and I wonder why I haven’t appreciated that phrase until now.
So I hope that everyone has a great new year and I hope that whatever goals/resolutions you guys may have for the future will be achieved and blossom into something greater than you can ever imagine.
So for the most part of this year I have been more in touch with reading. Like I have said before in a previous entry, my time to really sit down and read has been limited but I have really put more effort into this year, taking whatever time I DO have to read whatever is on my pending reading list. I even bought a couple of books just so I have something on my ebook reader and it will make me want to read and not waste my money by it just sitting there. Plus, that ebook reader was a gift from my husband for Mother’s Day because he knew that I used to love reading so much and he wanted me to continue that passion. I love him so much. In turn for Father’s Day, I bought him one too! He was never normally a reader but over the years he started reading more and found the joy of being engulfed in a book! He even read more books than me at one point and I was hilariously quite surprised by it. So why not share in that passion together? I got him his Kobo e-reader and he was so excited and happy when I put a couple of books in there that he had been wanting to read for quite some time.
I had set myself a goal for this year to read at least four books by the end of the year. I know it doesn’t seem like much AT ALL in comparison to avid readers out there but I wanted to set a realistic goal for myself knowing that my time to read is limited. Now, not only did I read four books, I surpassed it by three books so SEVEN books in total!! Now, mind you, a couple of them were Audiobooks but it’s still a win for me because it’s still books that I never would otherwise have been able to read. Read more ›
The title says just that. I want to curl up with a blanket in this cold weather with a hot cup of coffee and read. I have to say, that is one of the things I miss most about having some extra free time. My free time is only at nights when my son is asleep and by that time, I just want to sleep.
I miss reading a good book though. I still get to read once in a while but I can’t fully engage myself in a book because I just always end up dozing off. I am in the middle of 3 or 4 current books at the moment and each are equally good that it’s hard to concentrate on just one. I am trying to find my specific tastes in books and I have to say it’s not that easy. My mind wants to be open to numerous genres and that’s probably a good thing.
I also started listening to audiobooks since I have longer commutes to and from work and honestly, that’s helped a lot. It’s not just the story that makes a good book but when it comes to audiobooks in particular, the narrator makes A BIG DIFFERENCE. Read more ›